I am

I'm a fleeting desire, not a soulmate
A siren's call, a passionate mistake
I'm agony untold, not a blissful respite
A blinding spell, an enchanting light 

I'm the lady luck, not an angel in disguise
A twist of fate, a roll of dice
I'm a deadly gamble, not a stroke of chance
A Karmic encounter, a destiny's glance 

I'm an ephemeral echo, not the divine voice
A trick of reality, a dangerous choice
I'm the whispers on the wind, not an epic tale
A transient memory, a moment so frail 

I'm an untamed gypsy, not a bird of paradise
A hint of sensuality, a touch that electrifies
I'm the haunting of your soul, a tormenting melody
An unwritten song, an unfinished rhapsody...

 

Bird of Prey

Soaring high in the sky,

I could never reach you,

Preyed on my heart,

I just could not defy you,

A fleeting night of passion,

Spent hours tracing your ink,

Wrapped in your warm wings, 

Felt like I could never sink,

Caged in your strong arms,

Dreaming possibilities forbidden,

Have to let you go soon, 

Can't reality just stay hidden,

Million promises we made,

But now you've gone too far away,

Taking your warmth with you,

Can you not stay?

Soared high on your wings, 

keeping reality at bay, 

In those moments you were mine,

My own bird of prey. 

Dream

I open my eyes from a hazy dream

Trying to remember what could have been

Sorting through memories from an unfinished time

Of those caressing whispers in my ear

Causing shivers run down my spine

Trying to put a face to your haunting voice

Recalling the way you made me feel in your arms

Every touch of yours is branded on me forever

I just want to feel alive once again

But you leave me cold with just your impressions

I close my eyes over and over again

Trying to escape into the half forgotten dream

Wanting one more moment together

Hoping to find out just who you could be

Want to call out to you, if only I had a name

Reaching out to hold on to you

But the emptiness I find just causes despair

You were so real but were you really there

I wish we had more time together

It's driving me crazy, these endless thoughts

We were a melody half written

An endless ballad unsung

Want to hold onto what was yet unseen

Washed away in wisps of wakefulness

Reality seeped into that beautiful dream

Forever a Lie

Every forever is a lie
It only lasts until the next goodbye
Dreams are never meant to matter
Like fragile glass waiting to shatter

Hopes never should be held high
They’ll drown you but still leave you dry
Life is a puzzle an endless game
You think you own it but it won’t tame

Love is just a breathless sigh
It’ll be gone in the blink of an eye
And when you think you’ve mastered it all
It’ll all end up in an ungraceful fall

Just keep your head high
Through the final goodbye
Don’t you say forever you will try
As every forever is a lie

Shadow

You are my reflection

On the other side of the wall

A walking perfection

Never letting me fall

In this world of deception

Million shadows on the wall

It is my perception

You are better than all

You are my life's fascination

I wish the time could stall

And you would look my direction

Like you could hear me call

It is a divine connection

Separating us from all

Life wouldn't be an imperfection

Had there been no wall

Taking with me our recollection

These memories I would recall

I sadly leave the comfort of your affection

But you will always be my shadow on the wall

The Extra Mile

To spend some stolen moments with you,

I wish I could walk that extra mile

But I'm bound by promises too good to be true

So forgive me if I'm here just for a while

Serendipity was at play the moment we met

With your playful talks you made me smile

There is no moment with you that I'd ever regret

So let me be with you, love just for a while

You form my daydreams, its magic that I feel

You voice, it envelops me in a loving embrace

Every moment with you keeps flashing like a reel

Every night all I wish to see, is your loving face

I wish I could walk that extra mile

As being with you is at stake

And when I reach you, I'd long for a smile

We'd embark on journey we wish to partake

The Calling

Tried my hand at many a thing

But nothing to perfection did I bring
Is there no quality of mine?
Which would bring my name to shine

With heart and passion for them I toil
But all the arts from me recoil
There is nothing that ever means to stay
Wish I had a calling, if I may

I’m nothing but merely a part of a throng
All this fighting never made me strong
Trying to justify why I was born
It breaks me to pieces, I feel so torn

Wondering since the very first day
Am I nothing but a piece of clay?
If so, there is nothing more that I desire
Than to be hardened by this life of fire

I wish to ask again, if I may
What’s my calling, tell me I pray
Would I rather paint or dance or write or pray
Or should I just not bother and get on with the day

Escape

 Some million miles away on lonely pathways

Through clear blue skies and thunders grey

Lies a place enchanted touched by golden rays

There under the open skies in the grass I lay

Watching the clouds uncurl into mystic shapes

Into the wind I blow a solitary grass blade

Admiring the sky turning into varied shades

I reminisce about the life to which farewell I bade

Ever so pure untouched landscape

At the beauty of which I forever gape

I fall from the edge of this lonesome cape

Its all in my mind, this beautiful escape

Final Goodbye

When was our love born, it seems like just yesterday
But its been ages since our love saw the light of the day
In these dark hours I never thought this trust would sway
It's an everlasting night and my love you are so far away

Under the starry night sky, recollecting memories I lay
wondering where our love went, was it not meant to stay
Were the millions of miles the reasons for it to fade away
Or the time we never spent together turned it out this way

You were my sunlight but this has been a cloudy day
Even the sun stopped shining as we both looked away
Nights are cold and dark, we have to escape them someday
Should I be waiting or I find another sun to warm my day

I would leave now, but I would still miss you on a rainy day
I hope you find someone who would push the clouds away
I died the day you left me but I'd be born again some day
But I won't return so this is the final goodbye that I must say

प्रतिरूप

साँझ हुई जब मद्धम सी
कोमल होंठों पर पिघल गई,
स्वर्ण किरणे उन चंद लम्हों की

निशा आई जब धीमे पाँव
चंचल नैनो में कैद हुई,
रेशम सी किरणे निद्रा की

भोर हुई जब उजली सी

हंसी में लिपटी मिश्री घुली
कोयल की कूकती बोली सी

तुझे देख अपने प्रतिरूप,
हृदय पिघला, रोम रोम खिला 
बन गई तुम रोशिनी मेरे स्वप्नों की

Soulmate

Many of them won't ever appreciate
My beautiful world that you create
You would say its all too late
I would just say, leave it to fate

I found you when I had no one
When I had thought I'd never be undone
You shine on me like the bright sun
Made me forget from another I got the burn

With you I have spent moments too few
But you make it all look so fresh and new
For a longer time I wish, you I knew
I want us to be something real and true

You claim to be thorns on a rainy day
I hope you bloom soon, its all I pray
We are just humans made up of clay
 molding each other in our own way

No more anger, fear or hate
Feelings tender we would reciprocate
Again I would say its never too late
In my shadow I see you my soulmate

The End

Stars in the sky are twinkling blue
I wish I knew or had a clue
Why with so many around am I still so alone
Where from came this feeling so forlorn

Happiness is seeping through every pore
I no longer feel it in my core
Is it because you never loved me much
Or is it because I still miss your touch

Those buried memories in the silent grave
Away from which this path I pave
No matter which way a step I take
There are thorns lying in my wait

Will they ever turn to flowers

Or you took with you the nature's powers
Did we ever even start, to be over

Where do you hide, why do you cower

Don't worry wont ask you again to be my lover
I am just looking for answers I could never discover
Tell me oh please, where it started where did it end
So I could put this story to a final The End

Someone Special

Winter is gone
Spring is near
Sun-filled dawn
Nothing to fear

Through the rose tinted gaze
Everything looks so pure
I lack the words of praise
But its heavenly for sure

I wake up again with smiling lips
No loneliness, a feeling of belonging
Happiness spreading till my fingertips
  I am no more left wanting

Deep in my heart is a desire
To reach out to you, my special someone
lighting my life with passion's fire
With you till eternity it would burn

Escape to the place where,
You and I would always be one
I ask again, if I was unclear
Would you like to be my Special Someone
My dear....

Unspoken

There is a storm brewing
Oh, where is the joy
Thought you'd be understanding
But all you do is ask why

There is longing and fears
Confused emotions and pride
So many unshed tears
Wish I had a place to hide

Times have turned
I am just a shoulder to sigh
Wounds deep in my heart are burned
When all you say is a lie

My heart was in your hands
you let it fall and shatter
Washed away like footprints in sand
Memories of us, do I even matter?

You'll always have me by your side
when you want to share or are low
I'll hold this place with pride
Until you would want to let go

I drink my own tears
Keeping it all locked up inside me
I am overwhelmed with fears
Because I know you won't ever want me

My Beloved

Lying in surrender
my life has gone under
like bolts of thunder
my emotions you plunder
feelings unrequited lying asunder
am I unworthy, I just wonder

Nights I spend lying awake
wondering where I'd made mistake
why ruthless behaviour to me you partake
its gnawing at me, this chronic heart ache
how with every uncaring word I break

 you never do realize what for me is at stake

look at me once the way I do you
what you mean to me you haven't a clue
time we spend are moments too few
one day you'd wake wondering how the time flew
don't worry you would find me still loving you
our relation is one I would always hold true

Nature's Sentinels

In a haze of colours see the summer blurring past
Wondering why for long spring does not last
In due time forests turn to crimson fire
As trees don their autumn attire

Braving the thunder, storm and snow
Winters lend them an eerie glow
Cradled by nature, they stand in line
They are the proud sentinels of time

Silent Spectators of deeds of past
Sheltering one and all in shadows they cast
They know no cast , colour, or creed
Man or beast they pay no heed

They saw many a men fall and rise
Absorbing it all with their ancient eyes
In earthly wisdom they are never lacking
Time eternal in them they keep tracking

Inspired

Picking my thoughts lying asunder

I see how the mighty ocean flows
Shimmering silver with claps of thunder
Proudly embracing the mighty blows

Watching coals burning amber
A flicker of hope in me grows
As the vines on withered stone clamber
In me understanding flows

As waking up from a deep slumber
I hold my unfulfilled dreams close
Towards the unknown unseen I lumber
Treading the unbeaten path I chose

In the hope of finding solace
By fulfilling not so placid vows
Will walk with pride at a steady pace
Till with victory my head humbly bows

Unfulfilled Dream

Closing my eyes I see the horizon
Life is moving on, feelings are undone
Sounds of thunder bring me to wake
Few tears slip down, another mistake

Were woven with care, these shattered dreams
I’m trying so hard to drown my screams
Choking under the binding ties of despair
Oh, why does life have to be so unfair?

Sunshine gone, its cloudy days
Want you back, my heart prays
Forgive me my weakness, its anger
I really wanted us to last longer

It was heaven love, being with you
No matter how hard I try, can’t get over you
Last of us I remember, being in your arms
I was so swept away by your charms

Letting go of you was hardest thing ever
It was that last time, it would be forever
Path you chose had only room for you
Am walking alone holding to my heart a dream… It’s you

Unrequited Promises

Caught up in this musty haze

Wish I could replay those days
Change the times I was wrong
And sing again a happy song

Turns out I was blindfolded
And in your ways I molded
Never seeing your blatant lies
Which I would have so despised

Incoherent those words now seem
The themes of my every dream
Pricking my soul form the start
They stab again my broken heart

Your place has now been taken
Your presence is now forsaken
I leave behind these empty walls
And those promises you made so false

I put this chapter to an end
My life has reached a new bend
Now it’s time to start anew
Color my life with rainbow hue

Numbness

When the silence seeps in

and numbness is the only thing i feel within

I think of all the times when i had tried to speak,

of the times when you had burdened me with promises to keep

and now that the time is gone

and you cant rewind or run

and as we face each other

you realized what you have lost forever

no matter how hard you try

the tears in my eyes have run dry

all your efforts will go to vain

as I'm too numb now to feel your pain

i wished you had realized in time

had not let us play on the line

and now as i say good bye

you try to hold on and catch my eye

but i close my eyes to catch the silence i feel

and all you are left with is the picture reel